Wednesday, May 07, 2008

May 6, 2008

May 6, 2008

Twelve years ago, on this date at one in the afternoon, my mother went on to the next life and is with the Lord.

I can’t believe, I’m writing a post about this day. Maybe, it is because I have found peace and acceptance that she is no longer with us or perhaps I needed to write something about it to comfort me on this day.

As I sit here staring on the monitor, I try to understand what it is that I’m exactly feeling at this moment.

I am not really sad neither am I happy.

It is a mix up of many emotions.

And it is up to me to decide which among these emotions I must choose.

But as I choose among these emotions, am I just fooling myself, denying what my true feeling is or am I just giving myself the empowerment to decide how am I going to spend my day; happy or sad, heartbroken or inspired, cursed or blessed.

Forgive me for blabbering.

This day used to be painful but it ceased to be today.

I am peace with the thought that my mom is already with her Creator and she is in a perfect state of happiness.

I am grateful that God has given me a mother like my mom because she was simply the best.

I am thankful because even if I had my mama for only seventeen years , I have shown her how much I love her. I don’t have any regret, that I should have done this or should have done that for her because I can’t think of any word left unsaid or any act of love not shown between us. I know she knew that I love her dearly and she loves me so much no word/s can describe it.

1 comment:

Jacque said...

hi joy, sure, link me up. thanks for visiting my site. :) oh and it was nice reading your blog. God bless.

No matter how much we think that we are sad of losing people we love, God is still good because we know that they are in a better place. :)


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