Missing You

Last night, I was not able to sleep well because of my asthma. I was up as early as 4:00 because I was getting frustrated trying to get some sleep.

I did some household chores and bought "pandesal" at the local grocery and ate breakfast early so I can take my medication for my asthma.

At around 7:00 am, I went back to bed and tried if I could get some nap to compensate on some of the loss sleep the previous night. I was able to easily doze off and was in dream land in a few minutes.

I have one of those rare instances when I have my mother in my dreams.

In my dream, I was looking for my mom when I found her, she was at our front yard, sitting on a chair and reading a book. I smiled when I realized she was reading a Harry Potter book. She looked up at me and I said to her "Ma, okay ka lang po? ( Ma, is everything alright?). She smiled sweetly and gazed at me lovingly without answering my question. So I asked "Bakit po?" (Why?) and she said " Wala lang, sinuwerte lang ako sa iyo ( I'm so lucky to have you). She hugged me tightly and I told her " I love you."

And then I woke up from my dream.

It's my mother 14th Death anniversary on Thursday.

I missed saying the word "Mama," and I terribly missed her.