Angry

I'm the type of person who don't really get angry. When someone offended me or displeased, I don't confront the person and tell them that they hurt me.I bottle up all my anger inside.

It's really rare that I raised my voice. People tell me that I'm so pleasant that it's hard for them to imagine me being upset or mad.

But sometimes that concept of me in other people become a disadvantage because they tend to sometimes not treat me well because they have this belief that I won't mind and that I would understand.

I am angry right now. Super angry with people and mad at myself for not being angry at all and for not standing up for myself.

I won't do anything crazy today. I just need to realease this feeling I have because I am so hurt and frustrated too.

Memo

I've posted the memo I've received from the Human Resources Department at the side of my office's computer's monitor. A reminder that I should be serious in finding a new job.

The memo served as a wake-up call to me that working in this company for ten years is enough service and that I should be in the look out for new job prospects.

This is only the second time that I've received a memo from the HR Department and I admit that I feel bad because I don't think that the observation one person had about my work merits this memo. I think that the issues raised are minor ones, that a verbal reminder is sufficient to address the flaws presented to me.

I've already written my letter in answer to the memo.

I want to resign from work now but that is not possible until I find a new one because of financial concerns.

I would really love it that instead of answering the memo, I could just have handed my resignation letter instead. But that would be wishful thinking for now.

Sleeping Troubles Again

Last Sunday was not a good night. I was in bed as early as nine in the evening only to fall asleep at almost three in the morning. I was tossing and turning all night trying to get some sleep.I tried trying to relax my mind to no avail and that's the reason I couldn't sleep. I was stressing over something and I was not able to come up with a solution before I got to bed. The stress put a toil on me and affected my sleep.I was only able to get almost two hours of snooze time because I have to be up at five for work the following day.

The following day, I filed for a half day leave so that I can have the entire afternoon to rest. The whole Monday morning I was tired because of the lack of sleep.

When I got home I tried to get a nap but my mind is not cooperating. I was tired all right but my mind is still in active mode. I know that staying in bed is useless because for sure I will be irritated trying to sleep.

So instead of resting the whole afternoon, I find myself cleaning the house and ironing clothes. While doing these chores I keep telling myself that these activities will tire me and will help me eventually have a good night sleep.

I finished my task late in the afternoon I told myself that if I sleep now at five, I wouldn't be able to sleep within my normal sleeping schedule.

With no chores to do I open up the computer and see what Online Match 3 Games I can play.Match 3 Games offers a lot of Download Match 3 Games I can play to pass up the time.

But before I can finish my online game, my eyes become tired and heavy. I was so sleepy that I was in bed as early as 7:30 pm up to 4:30 am the following day, finally some good night rest.

GodWhispers

One of the GodWhispers messages I got from Bo Sanchez' GodWhispers' Club:

Dear Joy,

Everything you want is just outside your comfort zone.

Everlastingly yours,
God

P.S.
Are your ready for some excitement Joy?

New Zodiac Sign

I am not into astrology but an article about a new zodiac sign caught my attention recently.

According to astrologers, the slight movement of the earth caused the signs to slipped about a month westward to the stars and thus producing a new zodiac sign. From twelve original zodiac signs we now have a thirteenth zodiac sign - Opiuchus.

The New Zodiac Sign Dates:
Capricorn: Jan. 20 – Feb. 16
Aquarius: Feb. 16 – March 11
Pisces: March 11- April 18
Aries: April 18- May 13
Taurus: May 13- June 21
Gemini: June 21- July 20
Cancer: July 20- Aug. 10
Leo: Aug. 10- Sept. 16
Virgo: Sept. 16- Oct. 30
Libra: Oct. 30- Nov. 23
Scorpio: Nov. 23- Nov. 29
Ophiuchus: Nov. 29- Dec. 17
Sagittarius: Dec. 17- Jan. 20

I'm an Aquarian no more and now I have the Capricorn sign. I'm not actually bothered because I've never consulted astrology in any of my decisions in life. I believe that I make my own destiny and it is not the stars or the sun or any heavenly bodies that make it for me. My blessings come from God who made the heaven and the earth.

Yummy Angel's Pizza

Have you tried Angel's Pizza and their amazing promo?

My family did and were having a grand time stuffing ourselves with their super yummy yet affordable pizzas. Their pizza is loaded with toppings and the crust is baked to perfection. I can almost taste the mozzarella cheese melting in my mouth.

On New Year's Day we ordered a big family Fancy Aloha and requested for the Extra Feast flavor for our free family pizza. My dad, two siblings, my brother's girlfriend and I had our fill of pizza and we're all satisfied.

So what's their promo?

A VIP Card Holder is entitled to any of these three promos:

* A 20 % off on every pizza purchase

* A free Family Pizza for every Big Family pizza purchase or

* A free Medium Pizza for every Family pizza purchase

This VIP Card is for free unlike the promo card of other pizza store where you have to purchase the card for P350 pesos before you can avail of the free pizza for your every pizza purchase. The good thing with Angel's is that you can order any flavor of pizza of your choice which compared to other pizza store where they limit the free pizza to either Hawaiian or Pepperoni flavor only.

The free pizza I ordered with our Big Family pizza purchase is actually their best seller so that's really value for your money. The Big Family pizza cost us P515.00 only and delivery fee is for free.

Metro Manila Film Festival

Have you seen any of the eight films featured at the Metro Manila Film Festival?

I was able to watch the award winning comedy " Ang Tanging Ina Mo Rin" with my boyfriend a day after Christmas through the movie passes given by a friend of my father.

The movie passes entitled the bearer to see not one but all of the film entries of the festival at any cinema in the Metro.

After watching "Tanging Ina", I passed on the movie passes to my brother and to his girlfriend who in turn watched the horror film "Dalaw" and another comedy " Si Enteng at si Agimat."

My brother turn over the tickets to my father and his friend to watch "Super Inday and the Golden Bibe" and "Shake, Rattle and Roll XII."

So you can see, we maximize the free movie passes and everyone was able to see a movie over the holidays.

The Metro Manila Film Festival is already on its 36th run, I hope that they will be able to come up with a much better logo than the one they currently have. Maybe they should run a logo making contest or perhaps seek Logo Design Tips from the experts to improve the logo that they have now.

I wish that we'll have a new set of movie passes during the next run of the festival and I hope the movie producers will be able to come up with quality films for their audience.

No Regrets

I just realized that I must not be to hard on myself. I need to forgive myself for the wrong decisions I've made and not let the past haunt me. Why would I torture myself with what "ifs" and "buts" when I know that I did what I did because it is what I thought to be right at that time? I didn't do anything in my life that I knew is wrong from the start. ( just thinking out loud :)

Happy 2011 !

Yey! it's 2011! I'm looking forward to everything this new year has to offer.

The new year offers a fresh new start for someone like me who has been through a lot physically, emotionally and spiritually last year.

I'm starting this year with a positive frame of mind that with God's grace, I'll be in a better place this year than the last.

Please pray for me and I wish you and your loved ones all the best for this New Year. God bless us all!

Metanoia

Metanoia - a change of heart. A change of heart and a renewing of the mind is what I wished for this new year. This is the main goal that I have for the year.

Spiritually - a deeper relationship with God

Financially - invest in a stock market and join " Truly Rich Club."

Emotionally - sort out all my emotions and process everything because our feelings is our window to our soul

Career - find a new job that will help me grow professionally

Relationship - strengthen my relationships with loved ones and be a part of a spiritual family

Physically - get into a fitness program

There goes my goals for this 2011. I pray that at the end of this year, I'll be able to meet all the goals I've set.